Megaroo

You are the light of the world!

2006-12-11T02:43:35Z

GODSPELL was amazing!! Congrats to all involved with the show. You guys moved me to tears. Honestly and truly. Those are the kind of shows that Merrimack should always put on. :D Glad I made it home to see it! Glad I got to see some familiar faces from the cast and not from the cast. I have been missing some of you so much up at CSC. I miss acting with you, or just laughing with you. <3 <3

In a way it was cool to be back, of course. Though, I am still not sure what the deal is with that sculpture in the cafe lobby...why exactly is a pyramidal-shaped thing that flashes lights and plays rap music supposed to commemorate Laura Wolf's life? Hmmm....I think she deserves more than that. But I guess it is the best Merrimack could come up with. I mean, I like its design, but it does not serve its purpose.

I cannot get Godspell songs out of my head haha.

Back to CSC tomorrow for A Midsummer auditions!!!! Just hoping for a small role, if anything. After all it is my first college show and I am sure to be surrounded by talent. I am nervous and anxious and feeling like I have to puke as usual.

There is much Christmas shopping left to be done. For:
*Ashley
*Scott
*Dearest Cam
*Pat

All others are done!!!

All's well that end's well...

This one goes out to you...
You are the light of the world!
You are the light of the world!
But if that light is under a bushel,
Brrr, it's lost something kind of crucial
You got to stay bright to be the light of the world!

ring_0f_fire @ 2006-11-21T20:56:00

2006-11-22T01:56:55Z

I put my iTunes on shuffle and this is the soundtrack of my life. :) Some of them are quite lovely and relevant...others are not haha:

Opening Credits: Beautiful Day-U2

Birth: I Woke Up In A Car-Something Corporate

First Day At School: High of 75-Relient K

Falling in love: Golden Years-David Bowie

Fight Song: We Will Rock You-Queen

Breaking Up: As Lovers Go-Dashboard Confessional

Prom: Miss America-Something Corporate

Life: Bittersweet Symphony-The Verve! (No freakin’ way!)

Mental Breakdown: Layla-Eric Clapton

Driving: FutureSex Lovesound-Justin Timberlake

Flashback: Fat Bottomed Girls-Queen (Oh, Lauren…)

Wedding: Hands Down-Dashboard Confessional

Birth Of Child: Garden So Simple-Ani Difranco

Final Battle: Walking in Memphis-Mark Cohn

Death Scene: Real World-Matchbox 20

Funeral: A Man of Constant Sorrow-The Soggy Bottom Boys

Ending Credits: Way Away-Yellowcard

So livejournal, I have not visited you since about orientation weekend...

LIFE IS SO GOOD! Honestly, college is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Hands down.

When I come back to Merrimack, I just sigh and remember all that went wrong here. Granted there were moments of awesomeness. However, my new outlook deals with looking ahead. I don't really stress too badly anymore about papers, finals, sports, etc. Why stress? Why spend important moments of a short life with stress, sadness, regrets?

I have been lost in music lately...and I love it.

I thank Jacqui and John for my new outlook. They are the best friends a gal could ask for! :D

That is all, more later when my computer is fixed!

P.S.: My love for Andrew Macmahon cannot be expressed in words. The concert was wonderful. Me and Andrew had a moment. Everything was lovely...it was everything I thought it would be and more. There is no way to explain just how much I look up to him and I believe he is a gifted musician. One of the most gifted I have encountered in this new era of music (which is mostly full of crap).

COLLEGE!

2006-09-11T14:26:30Z

YES! So I am at college finally. Not that anyone actually wished me luck or did any of that good stuff. Oh well, I am sure you are all busy with your own college-y things. Thanks to Ms. Kailie Boothby, who did check up on me and made sure I wasn't dying. She just started living on her campus as well. So it meant a lot that she took a few minutes to chat with me. :) Also a big thanks to Pat for checking up on me like every five seconds.

Everything is going great. Love the people more than words can express. Love being away from high school. Love the atmosphere. Love how it is cold in the morning and at night. LOVE LOVE LOVE! My first class is today though. That might change the LOVE LOVE LOVE. But as of right now, I don't think I'll be coming home to often. I will be seeing you all only on breaks. I need to be social and get to know people that I will be spending the next four years with. I think I will know the whole school (atleast by name) by the end of the year. That is exciting.

I enjoyed having Chris and Britty up for a visit yesterday while they were moving John in. I will miss them both greatly! :(

That is all for now. More on the class stuff later. But I am beginning to feel like this l/j has become a personal livejournal. Just me, talking to me. Oh well, I guess things will not be the same...

And I'm sure the view from Heaven beats the hell out of mine here...

2006-09-05T01:20:25Z

Rest in complete and wonderful peace Steve Irwin...you deserve it! You left behind a beautiful legacy that everyone should really respect and cherish.

Though I am a bit heartbroken about this (seeing as I was a huge fan of both Steve and Jeff Corwin on the Animal Planet), I know that Steve is going to shine down on all of us. He was a goodhearted person and he died doing something he absolutely loved. If you have to go, that is the way to do it...

:)

Here's to you, Stevie boy!

Serious time...

2006-08-31T23:01:31Z

So it is time to get serious: This is going to be (possibly) my last post before I leave for Colby-Sawyer. If you are planning on seeing me or in anyway, want to see me, before I leave...now is probably the time. :D Because I want to see you!

Honestly, I could not be more excited to go. I would like to take back what I have been saying about wanting to get out of Merrimack. That is NOT why I am excited to go to college. I am excited because college (specifically, my college) is the place for me. A laid back version of high school. Some people are going to some really uptight schools and quite frankly I think that is awesome for them. That is their thing. Well, not me, I don't feel like being all about school for the next four years. I am ready to let the good times roll. Finally, the liberation I have been searching for. It truly is the most perfect thing I can think of. Oh, Colby Sawyer...I am beginning to sound much like Steve Connington and his love for the Basket. Haha, in a weird way, I miss Steve. He was a good guy. Seriously though, I am sure all of you are thinking right now: College is the perfect place for Megan. Sitting there in some random food area, sipping some hot cocoa and reading some lame history book, out of both obligation and enjoyment. :)

Justin is going to come visit me at school quite possibly during my first week! That will make things seem a lot home-ier I suppose. We will embark on crazy adventures I am sure. All other visitors are welcome ofcourse, whenever the chance is there.

Let's see, socially, I am spent. Seeing and hearing of friends leaving is all so weird and surreal. It just seems like life has all just rolled and rolled up a hill to this moment and now it's at the top of the mountain ready to take that tumble. Me and Lauren went to MHS today to visit some teachers and it was just so strange being there and not feeling like you belong anymore. Feeling like we'd finally grown out of it. :) I realized then, it was time to go. There would be no more Rachel Behlers there or Courtney Reynolds or Val Cottons (etc. etc.). It is time...

Me and Lauren snuck into school by the way. The lameness of that cannot be quite understood without elaboration. Think: We spent four years imagining ways to sneak OUT of the school and today we snuck in. We were trespassors, rather than runaways. :b I <3 that thought! And I <3 Lauren Boulay! Even when she is a million miles away, I will!

That is the end for now.

Any takers on helping me pack?

Ah yes, and relationships are just not for me. Apparently. I am meant to be alone and slightly pathetic...only slightly though, Part of me likes it that way.

My shortest l/j post ever...

2006-07-30T19:12:46Z

This is going to be short and sweet. It is just a little, random, kind of painful realization I had today.

I found a picture of my three best friends and I in middle school. The Fab. Four. I just kept looking at it, deciding whether I wanted to cry or just admit that things change and sometimes you just can't go back to perfection. I decided on the latter.

My status with these three girls now:
1) We recently got pretty tight again and sadly she is leaving for college in Florida. Who knows what will happen now. I've got hope though.
2) I'm not sure what to consider the status with her. As far apart as ever for no reason that I can see or can figure out even though I dwell on it more than I should.
3) I wouldn't talk or even look at her again if my life depended on it.

So weird. This is proof it is time for me to leave.

<3 Meg

ring_0f_fire @ 2006-07-27T17:04:00

2006-07-27T20:55:29Z

So here is what my first semester of college classes looks like. I don't know the particular days yet but these are the classes I am taking:
-Writing 1-WRT105 (3 credits)
-Honors Pathway-PTH101 (3 credits)
-The Detective: Intro. To History, Society and Cultural Studies-HSC100 (3 credits)
-Intro. To Psychology (Honors)-PSY101 (3 credits)
-World Literature 1 (Honors)-ENG248 (3 credits)

No surprises there. I particularly enjoy the lack of math and science. Though I do have a fantastic science requirement picked out for my sophomore year (it's a class based on the history of sciences...i like that!).

Here is what I want my second semester to look like:
-Comparative Government and Geography-GOV100 (3 credits)
-Intro. To Statistics-MAT220 (3 credits)
-Individual and Community-SOC101 (3 credits)
-Media Criticism-COM203 (3 credits)
-20th Century Performing Arts History-THE201 (3 credits)

That is about the time my theater minor comes into play. :)

Just looking at the list of classes has gotten me excited. I cannot wait until college! CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT!

Things to look forward to for the next couple of days:
-JM + OAR tomorrow with my dearest Mercedes!
-GODSPELL and dinner with Pat and Dan
-Sleepover with Ms. Rachel Behler on Sunday
-Leaving for Lake Placid and Cleveland next Friday

Please do add to that list!

Off to class soon (BLECH)!

<3

Summer is shapin' up!

2006-07-16T23:30:35Z

Both yesterday and Friday were two of the best adventures of this summer so far (New Hampshire adventures, that is!)! Friday was an awesome open mic with Pat and Val (we watched the marvelous Tim and Chris of Lochlann Quirke). The best part is...they performed "In the Kitchen". :) Zoe and Brittney joined us later for some chatty chats in the parking lot near Amsterdam!

Saturday was a great lunch with Tim, Chris, Pat, John and Brittney. We ended up with a third pizza for free because we are that sexy. :D We then made our way to Target to buy Brittney some bedding and listen to Tim read little kid stories in the aisles. Well, we sorta listened...;) I then just proceeded to chill with my parents for awhile...for some great down time. We watched Eight Below and SAW 2.

Today I got two books (with use of a giftcard). The Great Gatsby was one...haha, oh Rachel, good times. And a book of T.S. Eliot poetry was the other. Excellent. The best part: My dad bought me the John Stewart AMERICA book! Sorry Brittney dahlin', he beat you to it!

I burnt Chris a birthday mix today which I think he will enjoy despite its immense lateness. I think if I get it to him by the end of July I will be proud of myself.

Humanities class is kicking me in the bum. I am procrastinating more than normal school...and NOW! Colby-Sawyer wants me to read a book just to "prepare" myself for college reading material...um, okay. This is why I tooked AP English. Even college prep English would have been "preparedness" enough, thank you. It is called Kite Runner...anyone EVER heard of this or read it?

V For Vendetta better be released on video soon! I saw the display at Target and got mad excited!

Ah yes. College goers: Please give me advice on what types of electives I should take for a well-balanced liberal arts education. K, thanks. BYE!

<3 Meg

If I died tomorrow...

2006-07-11T21:14:23Z

If I died tomorrow, you would never ever get a chance to see
me ever again.. Please answer the following questions and message them back to me!

What are 5 things you would want me to
know before I died? It can be anything.

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What would 5 questions be that you have been wanting to ask me? They can be anything.
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2]
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4]
5]

If I died, would you come to my funeral?

If I died, would you cry?

If I died, would you forget me eventually?

If I died, what would be going through your head?

If I died, would you tell me you loved me before I died?

Would you mean it?

If I died, would you regret anything you said to me?

If I died, would you regret anything you said about me?

If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?

If I died, what would be your last memory of me?

If I died, what would you remember me by?

If I died tomorrow, I would want to know your true feelings about me. What are your complete feelings about me, up to this day?

What is our best memory together?

What did we laugh the hardest at?

Repost this and see who needs to tell you something before
it's too late, because you never know what you've got until it's gone

Idaho trip!

2006-07-11T04:09:16Z

First of all, my Idaho trip was absolutely amazing! I saw my grandparents and godmother/aunt (my mom's side of the family) for the first time in four years. Though my Grandma has certainly aged and is completely losing her mind, she is still the sweetest lady ever. And Grandpa...well, he is still as sarcastic and witty as can be. I swear he has another thirty, forty...inifinite amount of years in him! :) My aunt spoils her dog too much so that was a little annoying but I was totally psyched to see everyone.

Seeing Tannis and Joel, my childhood best buds was amazing! Tannis is all smart and goal oriented just like me. She showed me her college and it made me see how bless I am to have Colby-Sawyer. My school made hers look kinda shmeh (and that is hard for me to brag about). I decided not to show her pictures of Colby. We did lots of shopping and caught up on the what's new and who's who in each other's lives. Joel was the man. We used to beat each other up, get in trouble and do crazy things then...well, nothing beats this weekend. We beat the hell out of each other, I showed off playing football and I held my own for a chick, thank you very much! We stayed up all night watching stupid cartoons and of course...POWER RANGERS! The wicked old episodes with Tommy and Kimberly, for those of you (all of YOU!) who I know were fans. :b

Words cannot describe how different and wacked life would have been had I stayed there. I would have had more friends (not necessarily all true ones like I have here) and I know I would have lived more on the edge. I would have lived way more laid-back and way more to the fullest. I feel as if NH made me high strung. It's just the style here in comparison. I would not have been as into school...and I think I would have saved Joel from becoming a Marine. I know I would have. It's depressing and scary to know he could be in Iraq in less than four months. :( My worst nightmare...

Anyway. Idaho made me realize how ridiculously constrained I am here. How I am not free. How I am not living as an 18 year old girl should be. I should not be focused on all the negative aspects of life. I should not be wasting my time with people who are not going to give a damn after I leave. I should not be tied down with anything serious and I should be out every weekend with friends who are willing to be crazy with me. This summer has not been like that. I am waiting for it to pick up and hoping it will. I think I need some Mercedes time! ;)

In other news: ITALY WON THE WORLD CUP! :)

And in other news: For those who care...I tested out of three classes with AP credits (US History 1 and 2 and a literature exploration class)! I now get to take required English a semester early. :) I am also looking to pick up the full load of classes for my first semester. And most importantly, I am looking at graduating a year early. :D I'm psyched and I cannot wait! The faster I graduate, the faster Dartmouth will come into my life!

And now for a little poem I feel like writing to fit my mood and attitude:

I saw a hawk today
First soaring
Then free falling
From the sky

He then took a moment
To collect himself
And all his ecstasy
High above my head
Upon a branch

To some, his screech was
Loud
Obnoxious
Painful to the ear
A tyrant he was
That no one wished to hear

But to me
He sang a song
An ode to freedom
He spoke without
Restraint
Worry
Holding back

He then flew on
An echo left behind

Some felt
Thankful
Relieved
Glad
He had departed on his way
He would have become an annoyance
Had he decided to stay

But
I hadn't missed a word
"Be free."
"Be strong."
"Be infinite."

<3 ::sigh::

Summer nights home alone...

2006-07-04T03:23:53Z

WOWOWOWOWOWOW! It is already July. How close could college be without breathing down my neck? I've been counting the really great things that are going to happen before I go to Colby and there are only a few left. Fourth of July, Idaho, Jack's concert with Merk, Courtney's birthday/party, a Cleveland trip, AP Exam results (hoping this will be great thing for me anyway) and a Canobie trip and beach trip with Pat. Feel free to add more wonderful things to this list. The more there are, the less I will think about how nervous I am...:/ Add away!

So congrats to all the Twelfth Night people!!!

Here is the little ten people list thing that Abby did in her l/j. As she said as well, no matter how much you guess which one you are, I will not tell you. I think SOME of them will be so vague there will not be guesses able to be made.
1) You are one of the greatest people in my life. You listen. You laugh with me and I enjoy every second I spend with you. Unfortunetely, I feel we do not hang out enough.
2) You are one of the most underrated actresses at MHS. I think you have always been amazing from the first show I was in with you and right up until the last. Looks like you've gotten a chance to shine. :)
3) You promised you would never fail me in being a best friend. You said we would still talk despite college separating us and we still do even though you are away half the year. I do not have one negative thing to say about you and I never will.
4) Our friendship is losing steam. And something you have done has hurt me deeply. Though I have never said anything, it will continue to pain me until we lose touch completely.
5) You're so funny and enthusiastic and exhuberant about everything in your life. You have the personality that I have always dreamed of having. Sometimes I can't hang out with for the soul purpose that I am jealous out of my mind of you.
6) Honestly, I think you are mean, a backstabber and you treat some of your friends outright terrible. But I will always be here for you because you have never rubbed me the wrong way.
7) I think you're quirky, talented and a lot of fun. I can never get my nerves up to call you because I always think that you think I am boring.
8)We have had some AWESOME times. The only thing I regret is not getting the nerve to talk to you sooner. Oh, Hugh Jackman and dancing at Festival like white girls!
9) You're always here for me. You're sometimes really the only support I have. However, you never let me help you and you never let me into your soul and I can never please you. This hurts me more than anything in my life, which worries me...
10) Our friendship had its peak during Give and Take and a month or so after. I am mad at myself for letting it dwindle away. I hope we really keep in touch once I leave because you really looked out for me then.

Le fin.

I am still only on standard on DDR! :O When will I be ready to take on heavy?! ARRRGH!

Oh, the worries and anxieties of summer...how lame they are in the grand scheme of things. :b

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVEEEEEEEE!

Bouquet or comment lovelies!

2006-06-23T14:35:31Z

leave a comment at the door or a bouquet of roses:

1. i'll respond with something random about you.
2. i'll challenge you to try something.
3. i'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. i'll tell you something I like about you.
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. i'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. if I do this for you, you must post this on yours. [the catch.]

<3 <3 Meg

HOLLA!

2006-06-06T19:17:21Z

First of all, you must all go to this website and learn about the wonders of the "Evolution of Dance"! I find this to be one of the funniest things I've seen and you have to think about how freakin' talented the guy actually is:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg&eurl.

So here is the deal, this entry is just to announce the fact that SENIORS ONLY HAVE TWO MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT! Most of you know this already, in fact, all of you might but I just wanted to write it so the reality could sink in. HIGH SCHOOL IS FINALLY EFFING OVER! Like a dream come true...no, not a like a dream come true. It is one.

Though there are a handful of people I am going to miss (which sadly I could count on my two hands, maybe throw in a couple of toes), I am truly excited to be embarking on a new adventure. College is going to mean less drama and more excitement and more people who actually care about where they are going in life. I like that. Don't get me wrong, most of you are the kids that understand exactly where I am coming from and you all find your places on my fingers and toes. ;)

Humanities class is the best. I am not really sure how I feel about the teacher yet but I know how I feel about myself. That class is meant for me. I am going to stand out. I know what I am talking about and it makes me feel quite prepared for what real college class is going to be like.

I turned in my roommate survey for Colby-Sawyer! Cannot wait to find out who I got! :) :D

Graduation count down: 10 days! I can count that on my two hands too!

Semi is going to easily be one of the best nights of my life!

<3 Megaroo

P.S. Patrick Perry is saving my life a little bit each day. I do not think I've had a nice positive outlook in a good two years. Thank you!

P.P.S. The only thing I would change about right now is the fact that I am losing my best friend. I have been reluctant to say that for probably the past 5 months or so. It is truth. We are drifting apart and I guess that it is the time where that is supposed to happen. However, I really hope we spend a lot of time together this summer and we keep in touch. Well, I know we will do that because we rock. But, I want to keep in touch not by force or obligation but out of love and the bond we created about 6 years ago. :)

::sigh::

2006-05-26T02:27:25Z

Yep. Cool. Thanks to the band or chorus kid who stole my MP3 player and my $30.00. Thanks. I do enjoy being poor and not having any of my favorite tunes to cheer me up. :( Every escape I had was on that thing...

I think that is where my sadness began today.

I am not looking forward to college.

Tomorrow I'm skipping school because that just seems necessary seeing as my entire class is going to be gone. God do I hate everything that is Merrimack High School.

I do not feel like I belong at all anymore. I feel like no one wants to listen to me talk anymore. So I do not talk. Then people think I'm a jerk for not talking. ::shrugs::

My throat is killing me.

When will I ever have something important to say?

The only person I do have I just keep pushing away. But then again, I don't think he wants to be a part of my mixed up little world anyway. I'd rather have him get out of it now while he has the chance.

I hate the way I procrastinate.
I hate the way I am so out of shape.
I hate the way I rant in this stupid livejournal instead of just getting over stuff.

I especially hate the way I cannot pray anymore without crying and feeling like He's not really up there.

this is the end
beautiful friend
the end

Ugh conformity...

2006-05-20T04:38:35Z

1. Who are you? (OPTIONAL)
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When is the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your Live Journal and see what I say about you?
16. Potatoe / Potato ?

I'm feeling conformity hitting me hard today haha. Do it up if you so please!

Go see Divinci Code...preferably with someone you love oh so very much! It makes it an even better movie then it is! <3 Meg

New l/j time!

2006-05-16T23:04:32Z

Hey ladies and gents, after what quite possibly started as the worst day in the history of mankind, I am actually feeling a thousand times better than I was this morning. Despite coughing up lungs and other various organs, I am good to go :) Me and my love hung out and I have restored all my energy and happiness. He just changes every frown into an immediate smile.

Still pissed S.S.Day got cancelled. There are plenty of Merrimack families and locations that could have used our help today. :( Stupid Delisle...everything can fall back on that man. ARRRGH!

Another thing that is absolutely horrible is the cancellation of The Crucible. :*( You guys really did not deserve that, namely Courtney and Emily. That even hurts me and I was not involved with it. So sorry it happened guys. Well, Emily, you have another year of drama ahead of you and Courtney, you have Star Sports to look forward to. :D Those might not seem like pluses now, but they will be when you look back on this.

SCHOOOOOOOL UUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Physics. OMG Physics. Juniors, get out of this class while you still can!

Gonna watch HOUSE soon after studying for a FINAL in physics. That's right kids, an effing final. AS A SENIOR! Obviously Satan is at work.

Aurevoir.